I have a degree in Nutrition. I have an associates degree in Massage Therapy. I am an EMT and left the Air Force as a Tech Sergeant. I just left a bank job I have worked since I was 14. And yet here I am about to embark on a crazy journey in the most difficult career I have ever attempted. That of a stay-at-home mom.
I am finally excited to stay home. I believe that staying home is where God wants me. Yes, it will be difficult and sometimes seem overwhelming and I will have bad days. Yet I can't help but be inspired by the fact that I am able to help shape at least 2 little people to enter the world as a loving, compassionate, hard-working, serving, God-loving (I pray) member of society. I get to serve my husband and family in this role and I will be learning a LOT.
Both my mom and MIL worked full-time so I had to work through some guilt about not working "as hard" as these women. I felt that they sacrificed so much and that I was taking the easy way out. Plus, it's a little overwhelming not having some model to follow. As in, I will be learning how to do this on my own. Does anyone have a manual?
I have also tried this once before and I had a difficult time with it. Staying at home with a little infant can sometimes be a bit mundane and lonely. At least I learned what not to do.
Since the hubby and I started discussing this months ago (well, we had discussed it before marriage too) I have learned a lot and I can see how God has been working to prepare me.
The biggest lesson I have learned is that I need to look to the Lord for my contentment, not anywhere else, including a cranky child. The next big lesson is that I need to have a servant's heart. I wrote a while back about serving outside of the home, but then realized that I didn't have a servant's heart IN the home first. It has made a big difference in my home life and outlook. Lastly, I have learned that while society will always be trying to shape what I believe, I know I am not of this world. Because of this, I can't listen to all the messages we are bombarded with in daily life, the list long enough for a post all it's own.
So here we are in week three of my career change. I guess I can finally talk about the fact that I left work unexpectadly early a couple of weeks ago due to family sickness and a sudden lack of childcare. It was just too much going on and honestly, it's all still going on, but I can at least help out with family things being at home. We are adjusting well and there have been some difficult days but overall I am so happy to be here. My mom took Asher on Monday so I could get things done and I couldn't believe how strange it was not to have him already. I used to leave him 3 days a week and here I was feeling like I was missing an arm.
I am praying for a somewhat smooth transition when the new little one arrives, which I can only hope will be soon at this point. I can't believe how done with being pregnant I am! I don't remember feeling this way with the first, but I'm sure the hubby would remind me how cranky I was then too...